We Moved Tali Today

Hi friends... First of all, we know that SO MANY of you were praying for us today and we appreciate it sooooo very much. Thank you, thank you, thank you. We have truly felt the Lord sustaining us.

We moved our girl this morning. We've been in and out of tears all day, but are out at Starbucks now, NOT crying for the moment. Just gotta take it a few minutes at a time. Tali did well when we moved her, although I didn't do such a great job at holding myself together....I tried so hard not to let Tali see me cry but there was no way around it...we're just trusting God to hold her heart and make this all okay for her somehow. Anyway....it looks like we will be doing a decent amount of babysitting for her birth mom, so we will still see Tali fairly often. We've left her bed up and set up a second crib for Isaac. This afternoon we bought a crib mattress for Isaac, came home and rearranged the nursery to accommodate both of their beds, the changing table, etc. We also set up our bassinet. It's good to have stuff to do to get ready for Isaac as we work on letting Tali go. Kinda helps us both cope, I think. Definitely helps me anyway.

And yet, while it helps us cope, it in no way diminishes the pain of no longer being Tali's Mommy and Da-da...of not having her in our home and in our lives every day, of not being able to constantly pour into her.... It is so, so painful and there are moments in which the grief feels like more than I can handle. But we know that Jesus is holding our hearts and that He is more than enough for us even in this season, AND that He is more than enough for Tali. He will hold her heart also, and He will carry her and protect her emotionally, developmentally, etc. We have to trust in His commitment to her, His heart toward her. He is good and His plans for her life, and ours, are good. No matter what.

Annnnnd that's that. If you've texted or tried to get a hold of me today, please forgive me for not responding. As I'm able to handle it, I'll do my best to get back with you. For right now, most of the time it feels too difficult to try to communicate much via phone or text. But please KNOW how much Stan and I APPRECIATE your friendship and support and prayers. God has used you, our friends and family, to hold us up through this journey. We are more thankful for you than there are words to say.